Saturday, March 21, 2009

10 things people don't know about me...


Not that you'll be interested to know but people think they know a lot about me but there are more things I keep from others that I don't easily disclose. And this is my blog, that gives me the privilege to write whatever... Here's a list of some of the things that others don't really know about me nor for some time I may not have known about myself...

1. I hate wearing make-up. I wear make-up almost every day especially when I leave the house to go somewhere but only for the reason that I have vitiligo (depigmentation of the skin). Some portion of my face is not evenly toned with my real skin color so I have to even it out with make-up so that people don't get distracted when I talk to them. But once you get to know me better and hardly notice the discoloration in my hands, my feet and other parts of my body and probably have made me feel like you have seen more of what's within me than what is without, then you will probably see me without make-up on in some occasions. My vitiligo has spread wide enough to majority of my face, there's just a small part that is not white so I look forward to the day when I don't have to wear make-up at all!

2. I am easily intimidated. Probably some of my closest friends will disagree but I do get intimidated easily but I don't show it because the more I entertain the feeling, the more I get intimidated and that happens often. Others are actually more intimidated by me as they say I come on too strong on them. Some would even tell me that I have enough confidence to talk to big people or to anybody but I have actually learned to express myself with confidence as it is the only cure for vitiligo. I have had my share of insecurity, enough to know that it wont go away unless I can embrace the fact that I am what I am and I have to live with it. We're all sons and daughters of God, sounds cliche, but we are and in His eyes, nobody is better than the other - He just loves us all in the same way. Keep that in mind all the time and you'll be fine. You'll get through with all the intimidation that affects you.

3. I like to organize other things and plan but not organize my stuff nor plan my life. I believe I have a gift for planning and have eyes for details. This trait probably comes from my father because he is a planner and very good at it but just the same he doesn't know how to organize his stuff well especially his expenses nor is he good at planning what he wants to do. I am like that, I can't organize my own stuff nor my own plans for myself. I like to be surprised with whatever comes in life and spontaneity can be fun. I don't want to get disappointed when things doesn't go as planned especially when it's about living life and I have that in me when I'm doing an event - when it's beyond my control - I just easily let go. I can find my stuff easily when my table is scattered and I think fast when there's a bit of chaos around me.

4. I create designs when I don't see too much symmetry in my own space. When things are balanced there seemed to be enough perfection in it that doesn't leave room for something else. I don't also go for designs with evenness so what catches my eye are the irregularities of what I see. The uniqueness of a thing lies in its own imperfections and that makes it a beautiful creation. Curves has more beauty than straight lines, roughness has more depth and reliability than smoothness. Maybe I have such feeling because of my own imperfections. (Btw, this design was made by Tintin a long time ago as I specifically asked. And oh she knows me so well...)

5. I don't like fiction. I am not saying though that I don't read fictional stories, but given a choice, I would rather go for books with real stories in it like biographies etc. I am not fond of cartoons nor sci-fi movies but there are really good ones that reflects what is real for which I can identify with and I'm ok with that. I will not read Harry Potter though but I can dig Lord of the Rings.

6. I am a huge fan of Bae Yong Joon and Wentworth Miller. One with long hair, the other with a clean shaven head; an asian and an american; one had difficulty getting into college and the other obtained his degree at Princeton; one is very much into sports and really excels in it while the other will probably go only as far as working out in a gym though I think he was also into judo when he was younger; I think one is really more of an investor and the other primarily an endorser. I can say I have diverse interests in men and I don't have an ideal. Both, however, are born in the same year; in the entertainment industry and have played "heroes" on the tube; they are very creative artists and I read somewhere that they are into painting or something similar to that; and they both can draw(!); and most importantly both are single and wont be able to meet me in my lifetime. I really go for the creative ones, the right brain ones, those who are liberal minded yet in a way old fashioned and very disciplined. Those who speak well and appear to be confident but are really shy. I have bookmarked at least a couple of fansites of each of these 2 guys that I read almost everyday to know what they're up to and where they are. And that's just as far as I'll go to get to know them. I don't think I'll even ask for an autograph when I see them as I get stunned when I'm attracted to someone. I'd be afraid to say anything knowing that I might say something really really stupid and dumb. I've been in front of people I admire so much and often I am just speechless.

7. I am a risk taker. I will try anything that is new and even dangerous. I have experienced too much hurt and pains in my life that I don't have to be afraid to try anything that might hurt more than I already did. I learn well when I experience it so I'm not afraid to try what I haven't tried to really believe. This doesn't mean though that I will jump on a cliff to know if I could die doing it - that's stupidity my dear.

8. I am fascinated by baby pictures. That's the reason why I have pictures of babies here in my blog. The innocence of an infant, the varied emotions that you see in them and the carefree life that they seemed to enjoy is something to be envious of. I just love looking at them though I don't know if I have what it takes to hold or care for them. An experience I did not risk taking...

9. I have an enormous capacity to love. I just know it as my heart is so resilient to love and everything that goes with it and I can keep relationships last long. I have actually been too in love or should I say foolishly in love only once. I will fall into that again if it's one of those 2 guys I mentioned earlier(hahaha! dream on!). I do have a lot more room to love others that I think I have also been able to share with family and friends. God's love for me has been very unconditional to make me realize that we have so much love to give and share. Living to the fullest means loving to the fullest as well.

10. Finally, I really appreciate and love my family so much more now than I've ever did. Growing up wasn't that easy for us because of the silent competition among us siblings. We have grown so much that we've seen the uniqueness and the great talents and giftedness that each one possess. We all live simply but each one possess a colossal storage of intelligence, creativity and understanding that makes each one stand out. This treasure is not limited to just my siblings but to my nieces and nephews as well who have grown so much to make us very proud of how they have turned out to be - so different from what we have been like when we were younger. Grabe sobra gid ka proud si tita!!! I also thank Tatay and Nanay for what they have passed on to us - brainpower can't be learned, it is inherent. Am I too proud or what!?! This is MY FAMILY, not yours so shussh!

Doing this actually gave me more awareness about myself... try it and maybe share it with me?!


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